2 more weeks of hell

Last week was hell. TOTAL hell for me.
3 freaking tests and 1 submission. But I managed to get through it.

This decision that I've made since I was secondary 4, is somehow making me question myself. There were times when I really asked myself this question, "Why the fuck did I join this course?".

First, it was the passion that I have for working for this industry as someone behind the camera. 

Second, the fun and experience is something no other courses can provide. 

Third, pride for local production. 

However, after coming into this course, my passion for filmmaking decreases. One of the reason is probably the workload given by the school. Do you know how many thousands and millions of cells were killed over 1 project? How many hours did we sleep in a WEEK? And getting criticized and feeling demoralized? Seriously, someone with a weak heart, personality should never join fms. It will only kill you. 

Nevertheless, I still managed to get the fun and experience that I am looking forward to. It is really something that no other courses in poly can provide you. The connection and contacts you get when you go for different shoots is very important. And to me, I think Singaporeans should support local productions because if we do not support our own people, who will? 

Came across this link today.

http://thejellyfarm.wordpress.com/2011/05/28/120-why-singapore-tv-is-dead/

I actually agreed to what was written though I mentioned that Singaporeans should support the local productions. However, sometimes some people will just bully the newbies with underpaid jobs and stuffs like this. Why is this happening in the industry? Something which I don't understand.

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I think fsv almost killed me. For someone who is only late for thrice in Secondary school, getting 5 absence marked across your attendance from Week 2 to Week 6 is no joke. Which means to say, I was late once for class each week. This is very bad. And worst, I might get debarred from my Studio Production module if I am late again the next time. 

Don't asked me what happened to me, because all I will say is fsv screwed up my life and sleeping hours. This is really very bad. ): 

I watched Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist yesterday. I like this quote below: 

"I used to think that when I got older, the world would make so much more sense. But you know what? The older I get, the more confusing it is to me. The more complicated it is. Harder. You’d think we’d be getting better at it. But there’s just more and more chaos. The pieces - they’re everywhere. And nobody knows what to do about it. I find myself grasping, Nick. You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it’s right, but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible? I want to believe in that.”  - (Nick & Norah's Infinte Playlist, directed by Peter Sollet, 2008)  

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GSS is here! I shall get all the things I wanna get during the 2 weeks break. Looking forward to shoot Scene Adaptation too, because we chose to do my favourite scene in Freedom Writers. (:

Changes

The world is changing, after so long.
Or rather, MY WORLD had changed, because of you, tyvm.

Because of whatever shit that happened, I walked out of that world alone.
& Now, you're alone. So how's that feeling? Being neglected and ignored.
How nice, right?

But well, you made me realised that there's no point having any more relation with you.
& I did the right choice by putting down everything, though with a heavy heart and lead a new life.
I want to thank you for everything. Thank you very much.

With them around, I'm no longer alone, but you're. (:


Relationships - of all kinds- are like sand held in your hand.
When you hold it loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is.
The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled.
A relationship is like that. When you hold it loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact.
But when you hold it too tightly, too possessively and the relationship slips away and is lost.

"The best and the most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. It must be felt with the heart." -Helen Keller

Playlist Updated.
Due to the upcoming National Day, I was carving for NDP songs.
& I love a few of them but could only upload 2 of it so far.
My Island Home by Kiara Gong and Home by Kit Chan.
Favourites. :D

Mugging session starts on 24 July onwards.
94 days to O levels, no more slacking.
Xinying, Jiayou! :D
MIA.

I feel like changing back to livejournal.com because blogger is having too many problems.